Hiding Behind Myself

Everyday that passes I notice myself gazing into the future – the future of a bright, successful, joyful, vibrant, CRAZY young woman that I know I am destined to be. Though sometimes, instead I feel like I am hiding behind myself. This facade I have of the person I think that everyone wants me to be or even “society” thinks I should be has been the biggest weight I have ever had.

Hiding behind who I really am, who I really want to be, who I know I am… stinks!

Days go by and it seems as if it is going from one chapter to the next and sometimes into whole other book. Then one day out of the blue, I gazed off and turned around only to see me, the real me standing there shy, timid and a bit broken. All I said to that version of myself is “you are called for more”… “you are God’s girl”. I suppose as I came back to reality I felt happy that who I really was.

On the outside I thought I had it all figured out but I guess I really didn’t.

I am learning that it is best to live as I really am. I don’t need to impress anyone, show off or “stunt” to “fit in” or keep up with the Jones’s. I feel very blessed and pleased where I am at in life right now and I would change a thing.



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